i’m so heavy in your arms
true love prevails, universe be damned
Damon + unguarded eyes
1x13 / 5x09 - requested by relativelyinspace
#she couldn’t resist it #she had to touch him #she did it so casually as if realizing #she couldn’t touch him #she didn’t have any right #not to him #but as her fingers grazed his #she could feel it #the electricity that ran through the two #she knew it wouldn’t be long before she could no longer tell herself no #that this wasn’t right #because as she touched his heated skin #she knew it had never been more right.
Damon has been running from this for 50 years, and he is obviously still very emotionally messed up about it. He’s kept it from everybody out of shame, guilt, and fear. Elena had to pry it out of him because he believes that leaving Enzo, even under those circumstances is the worst thing he has ever done. I think in Damon’s mind, leaving Enzo is what solidified every bad thing everyone had said about him up until then, and it is a big part of what allows him to believe that he is the worst brother/vampire/person ever and undeserving of love and kindness now. And, the only way he could live with himself is by carrying out the revenge plan. Damon said he “had to carry out OUR revenge plan alone.” In his mind, he owed it to Enzo to keep on killing Whitmores because he left him there. Like, in a twisted way, that made it better for Damon and kept the guilt and self-loathing from overtaking him, both while he was off and now, even all humanitied up. I don’t think I’m explaining it well, but it’s such a fucked in the head thought process: “I have to kill Whitmores because to not kill them means that not only did I fail Enzo by not getting him out, but also by not even getting his revenge.
you know what i love
i love when you find that one character. that character that is your absolute favorite. the character that, just by thinking of them, makes you incredibly emotional. you know that character is the one for you. they’re your number one. and you know you will never love another more
ignore your responsibilites and fantasize about older men
"Anna said that vampires don’t have to feel pain…that they can turn it off. They shut out their humanity […] Is that what you did?”
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